Brave and Strong
Many thoughts, I have been having, about courage and all that. About how I'm Trying To Be Brave, and about whether this is good or bad, and which is the most important to avoid: Wallowing or Repression? and about how good I am at accelerating my own depressions, and if I can find myself a Something In The Middle.
But I like it when people tell me I'm brave, snd strong. I guess if I'm honest that's partly why I'm blogging this in the way that I am. I want you all to stoke my ego and tell me how ace I am.
And the best part is, when it all falls apart and I stop being B & S, and collapse in a puddle of grief instead, as long as I tell you all about it, you still call me S & B, for being so honest. Bargain!
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But I like it when people tell me I'm brave, snd strong. I guess if I'm honest that's partly why I'm blogging this in the way that I am. I want you all to stoke my ego and tell me how ace I am.
And the best part is, when it all falls apart and I stop being B & S, and collapse in a puddle of grief instead, as long as I tell you all about it, you still call me S & B, for being so honest. Bargain!
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Labels: Blogging About Blogging, Miscarriage
5 Comments:
As others have said, I am sure you have to be B&S to talk about this the way you have. And if you feel tearful sometime, that's allowed too. As a computer programmer, am I allowed to ask whether I have missed a subtle difference between "B & S" and "S & B"?
It is very nice to have you writing something before you go for the weekend. We, your loyal readers, just love your writing. I am sure I will continue following this blog for a long time.
Can I say something? I just wonder how useful it is to consider one's coping stragegies, or emotional responses as either good or bad: I believe they just are. On reflection, I can see how it would be perfectly useful, but I just worry about you layering on more pain and stress by judging one's responses, when they will be what they will be anyway. Does that make sense? I'm not sure I'm explaining it right.
Frankly what you're going through is just miserable. Be brave and strong, be drunk, or be a wimpering heap, you have to navigate a way through it. My heart goes out to you whichever way you do it.
Dandelion, you have a good point there.
Pierre, the difference is purely aesthetic: I was trying to avoid repetition.
Tall Girl, you too are right.
Thank you all for your thoughts.
You are brave and strong and ace! I'm new(ish) to your blog and think it is fab. I love how frank you are, and I just wanted to say hi and hang in there.
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