Boring Update With Details and Stuff
I've been posting a lot of guff lately, little twiddly posts between great long Important Ones, and the page turnover is very fast, and some of you are new here, and some of you don't visit very often (don't feel guilty, I do that too). So here is a rundown of Where I'm At:
I was pregnant, and then I wasn't. Every time we visit the hospital, they give us three options: (1) Let well alone, and That Nature Thing will sort it all out. Maybe. Probably. (2) Take drugs to force my body into a sort-of-almost laboury-type thing. (3) Have a D&C, which is where they scrape out the inside of your womb under general anaesthetic.
At first we chose option 2 (take drugs), but then Nature stuck her oar in before we had a chance, so we decided to go for option 1 (leave it be). But then Nature got bored and fell asleep, so we went for option 2 again (on Friday 13th, which I thought was pretty hilarious), but it didn't work. Currently I'm having period pains / cramps / contractions / labour pains (I'm very confused about all these terms, and could write a whole bloody post about it, and probably will, but I think they're all basically the same thing) most of the time, and barely notice them any more (they're quite mild), but it means I'm not really my normal self. Oh, and my hormones are all over the place. And I'm sleeping a lot. And I'm getting strange pains in my left hip. But apart from that, I'm fine.
There's still a load of gunk in my womb though, and we're going in for yet another scan on Friday, so unless I start bleeding between now and then, I think we'll finally opt for option 3 (womb scrape under general anaesthetic). I'll be glad when it's over.
In other areas of my life, or rather the other area of my life, I wrote another book, I sent it to four agents, three of them said No, one of them hasn't got back to me yet.
A literary agent is like an estate agent. They take responsibility for finding a buyer for your book, and if they find one they get a cut of the proceeds. Selling books is a complex business, and a LOT easier if you have an agent on your side. They're much nicer than the house-selling kind. I'll probably have to send the synopsis out to a whole load of new agents, and hope one bites. And then I'll have to find a publisher. It's all a bit of a pain.
To be honest, I was rather hoping I'd be well on my way to a second baby and a second book deal by now, but hey ho. Life is never simple.
And now I'm all sleepy again, so I may go back to bed.
Sorry for raking over old ground like this - I just realised it was hard for the casual reader to work out what the hell was going on in my life.
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I was pregnant, and then I wasn't. Every time we visit the hospital, they give us three options: (1) Let well alone, and That Nature Thing will sort it all out. Maybe. Probably. (2) Take drugs to force my body into a sort-of-almost laboury-type thing. (3) Have a D&C, which is where they scrape out the inside of your womb under general anaesthetic.
At first we chose option 2 (take drugs), but then Nature stuck her oar in before we had a chance, so we decided to go for option 1 (leave it be). But then Nature got bored and fell asleep, so we went for option 2 again (on Friday 13th, which I thought was pretty hilarious), but it didn't work. Currently I'm having period pains / cramps / contractions / labour pains (I'm very confused about all these terms, and could write a whole bloody post about it, and probably will, but I think they're all basically the same thing) most of the time, and barely notice them any more (they're quite mild), but it means I'm not really my normal self. Oh, and my hormones are all over the place. And I'm sleeping a lot. And I'm getting strange pains in my left hip. But apart from that, I'm fine.
There's still a load of gunk in my womb though, and we're going in for yet another scan on Friday, so unless I start bleeding between now and then, I think we'll finally opt for option 3 (womb scrape under general anaesthetic). I'll be glad when it's over.
In other areas of my life, or rather the other area of my life, I wrote another book, I sent it to four agents, three of them said No, one of them hasn't got back to me yet.
A literary agent is like an estate agent. They take responsibility for finding a buyer for your book, and if they find one they get a cut of the proceeds. Selling books is a complex business, and a LOT easier if you have an agent on your side. They're much nicer than the house-selling kind. I'll probably have to send the synopsis out to a whole load of new agents, and hope one bites. And then I'll have to find a publisher. It's all a bit of a pain.
To be honest, I was rather hoping I'd be well on my way to a second baby and a second book deal by now, but hey ho. Life is never simple.
And now I'm all sleepy again, so I may go back to bed.
Sorry for raking over old ground like this - I just realised it was hard for the casual reader to work out what the hell was going on in my life.
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Labels: Cheese Sandwich, Miscarriage, Writing About Writing
7 Comments:
Good luck on Friday. Take care. xx
You'v egot 'cheese sandwich' as one of you labels, but I don't see anything about chees or sandwiches. Something must be wrong with my browser in cutting off random pieces.
Hi Clare. As usual, I was a little worried at your silence (although I knew you were back because you were leaving comments in other place.
This is an excellent summary, but I would still recommend reading the entire sequence. It is very well written, of course, and full of emotion and reflects your ups and downs during these very difficult and exhausting times.
You are probably running low on cyber hugs by now, so here are a few more: *hug* *hug* *hug*. Enjoy your sleeps. I will wish you good luck for Friday nearer the time.
Yes - extra cyber hugs are the order of the day. I'd blog you one as well but blogger is having one of its regular wibbles.
{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}
Good luck on Friday Clare.
I like hugs! And I can't decide what I would consider to be 'lucky' for Fri. Wouod you think I was utterly weird if I said I kind of want a D&C?
Joe, I'm not falling for that again. You know full well what it means, and you're not going to trick me into explaining it! So ner. [sticks tongue out]
No, I don't think it is at all weird to want the D&C on Friday. As you have stated so well, Nature has got bored; or maybe she's not interested enough. In any case, she's had her opportunity and not done the job.
Nice to see you writing replies again. We wish you a good D&C.
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