Girls' Fun - Part Six
[I'm transcribing edited highlights of a diary I kept when I was 15 / 16 years old, in 1985. Index here.]
Mon 4th Feb 1985 (Clare is 15 years old)
MOCKS STARTS -> English and History.
After a few veiled hints about Sat night’s goings-on, Kirsty got the idea I’d lost my virginity, but I think I convinced her I haven’t.
History exam was awful. It’s the subject that needs most revision, and I only did half an hour at dinnertime. I only answered about 2/3 of the questions, and wrongly, I think.
Tue 5th Feb 1985
MOCKS -> Geography, Maths and French.
Me and Mum were talking tonight: she says she wouldn’t ever let me go to a boy’s house if his parents weren’t there. Oh dear.
Mrs Rose has already marked Section A of yesterday’s papers, and says mine was not at all good, but I know my section B was a lot worse, so what’s that going to be like? Oh dear.
Wed 6th Feb 1985
MOCKS -> Physics, German and Biology.
Thank God I’ve got the worst exam day over at last.
Biology was awful.
Thurs 7th Feb 1985
MOCKS -> English and Maths.
Saw Matthew this evening. He got a Valentine’s card this morning!
During drama a boy called Martin was v. attentive.* He’s a creep, Matthew can’t stand him, and I know it seems conceited but I think he fancies me.
Fri 8th Feb 1985
MOCKS -> Geography and Eng. Lit
Evverlyn Waarf will make you laugh, but Eeverlyn War is rather a bore.
I tripped up on way into Geog. exam and split my skirt right open along seams at back! Had to sit thru whole exam like it then got a friend to walk behind me at end and went straight home WITH MY COAT ON. V. embarrassing!
Did a lot of mucking about on computer this evening.**
Matthew rang, but only to arrange about meeting tomorrow and then rang off. Obviously doesn’t like phone calls.
Sat 9th Feb 1985
In town, Chris asked Rachel out! But Rachel said she was going out with someone else cos Kirsty’s reckoning to fix her up with some bloke at a disco on Friday, and anyway Rachel didn’t want to go out with Chris.
Then we went back to Chris’s house and there were lots of kinky goings-on, and Chris kept trying to get me in the dark. Then we went to the Odeon and saw Ghostbusters AGAIN! I got a bit randy during G’busters. I’ve never ‘felt’ a boy before. I was driving Matthew wild. It was really cosy and sorta romantic and we cuddled each other during the frightening bits, and he’s got this new suave Italian coat which no-one likes except me, and it makes him really cuddly and I’m beginning to love him again and somehow I get the feeling this is going to happen every Saturday.
Sun 10th Feb 1985
V-day soon! Philip back tomorrow! Maybe I’ll get a postcard - I haven’t got one yet!
Yesterday when we were in town, while I was in a bit of a mood with Matthew, I met a really nice boy serving in a stationer’s in the Shambles. He smiled at me and I smiled back. Rather friendly. Today I’ve discovered he slipped something extra that I certainly didn’t buy into the bag. I wonder? ***
Went to drama today. Matthew practically ignored me all session, and afterwards hardly seemed to notice me at all, and when they went to the Chippy I pretended to go home without saying Goodbye and at first he didn’t even notice! But then he did and I came back but then proceeded to ignore me and even told me to get off him when I put my arm round him! So then I ignored him and started to cry but pretended it was the wind.
Then Matthew went home without even saying G’bye so I just disappeared and cried.
* [Editor’s note: A few years after this, I bumped into Martin elsewhere, and in a drunken moment he confessed he’d fancied me when we were 15. I was probably more chuffed about this revelation when I was 21 than I would have been at the time]
** [Editor’s note: It was a ZX Spectrum. I used to spend hours programming it to play tunes, using the BEEP command]
*** [Editor’s note: I know, I know. Soooo fickle. Remember this isn’t me we’re talking about. This is 21 years ago. This is another Clare Sudbery entirely.]
Mon 4th Feb 1985 (Clare is 15 years old)
MOCKS STARTS -> English and History.
After a few veiled hints about Sat night’s goings-on, Kirsty got the idea I’d lost my virginity, but I think I convinced her I haven’t.
History exam was awful. It’s the subject that needs most revision, and I only did half an hour at dinnertime. I only answered about 2/3 of the questions, and wrongly, I think.
Tue 5th Feb 1985
MOCKS -> Geography, Maths and French.
Me and Mum were talking tonight: she says she wouldn’t ever let me go to a boy’s house if his parents weren’t there. Oh dear.
Mrs Rose has already marked Section A of yesterday’s papers, and says mine was not at all good, but I know my section B was a lot worse, so what’s that going to be like? Oh dear.
Wed 6th Feb 1985
MOCKS -> Physics, German and Biology.
Thank God I’ve got the worst exam day over at last.
Biology was awful.
Thurs 7th Feb 1985
MOCKS -> English and Maths.
Saw Matthew this evening. He got a Valentine’s card this morning!
During drama a boy called Martin was v. attentive.* He’s a creep, Matthew can’t stand him, and I know it seems conceited but I think he fancies me.
Fri 8th Feb 1985
MOCKS -> Geography and Eng. Lit
Evverlyn Waarf will make you laugh, but Eeverlyn War is rather a bore.
I tripped up on way into Geog. exam and split my skirt right open along seams at back! Had to sit thru whole exam like it then got a friend to walk behind me at end and went straight home WITH MY COAT ON. V. embarrassing!
Did a lot of mucking about on computer this evening.**
Matthew rang, but only to arrange about meeting tomorrow and then rang off. Obviously doesn’t like phone calls.
Sat 9th Feb 1985
In town, Chris asked Rachel out! But Rachel said she was going out with someone else cos Kirsty’s reckoning to fix her up with some bloke at a disco on Friday, and anyway Rachel didn’t want to go out with Chris.
Then we went back to Chris’s house and there were lots of kinky goings-on, and Chris kept trying to get me in the dark. Then we went to the Odeon and saw Ghostbusters AGAIN! I got a bit randy during G’busters. I’ve never ‘felt’ a boy before. I was driving Matthew wild. It was really cosy and sorta romantic and we cuddled each other during the frightening bits, and he’s got this new suave Italian coat which no-one likes except me, and it makes him really cuddly and I’m beginning to love him again and somehow I get the feeling this is going to happen every Saturday.
Sun 10th Feb 1985
V-day soon! Philip back tomorrow! Maybe I’ll get a postcard - I haven’t got one yet!
Yesterday when we were in town, while I was in a bit of a mood with Matthew, I met a really nice boy serving in a stationer’s in the Shambles. He smiled at me and I smiled back. Rather friendly. Today I’ve discovered he slipped something extra that I certainly didn’t buy into the bag. I wonder? ***
Went to drama today. Matthew practically ignored me all session, and afterwards hardly seemed to notice me at all, and when they went to the Chippy I pretended to go home without saying Goodbye and at first he didn’t even notice! But then he did and I came back but then proceeded to ignore me and even told me to get off him when I put my arm round him! So then I ignored him and started to cry but pretended it was the wind.
Then Matthew went home without even saying G’bye so I just disappeared and cried.
* [Editor’s note: A few years after this, I bumped into Martin elsewhere, and in a drunken moment he confessed he’d fancied me when we were 15. I was probably more chuffed about this revelation when I was 21 than I would have been at the time]
** [Editor’s note: It was a ZX Spectrum. I used to spend hours programming it to play tunes, using the BEEP command]
*** [Editor’s note: I know, I know. Soooo fickle. Remember this isn’t me we’re talking about. This is 21 years ago. This is another Clare Sudbery entirely.]
Labels: Girls' Fun
6 Comments:
I thought that I was going out with Chris!!!!
Oooh...that sounds nice with Matthew! And I'll leave "really feeling" a boy to the imagination :)
Sally: No, you and Chris had split up due to, um, a dispute. It's all in the Extra Special Secret diary entries I was transcribing for you last night. Hopefully you'll have it by the beginning of next week, although there's rather more of it than I realised!
Looby: Yes, very nice until he started ignoring me at drama! Watch this space. Dramatic developments to come in the next couple of weeks...
In fact, it's amazing how fast things can move in the world of adolescent love affairs.
P.S. I wish I knew what "really feeling" meant. Sadly this bit is unedited. You're getting everything I wrote - these entries are infuriatingly lacking in detail.
The confusing thing for me is that I have a very vivid memory of a very similar occasion in a cinema with a different boyfriend about six months later. I even remember what film it was - it was the Stairway To Heaven Led Zeppelin in Concert thingy. And in my memory it's always been the first time I ever 'felt' a boy (and was a spectacular disaster). But it's not mentioned in this diary, so I dunno whether I got two memories muddled up, or what.
>Extra Special Secret diary
There is a directors cut!
before the last chapter has hit the street.
I feel used!
Aw, sorry! Was just teasing with that line.
The thing is, Sally and I were best friends in 1985, and there's tons of stuff about Sally in the diary that I've edited out altogether - the reason being that it violates her privacy, and it was too difficult to separate the benign from the intrusive.
But understandably, Sally is intrigued by what I wrote about her... so I'm transcribing all the bits about Sally in a separate Secret Diary, which I'm sending to Sally separately!
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