Girls' Fun - Part Five
[I'm transcribing edited highlights of a diary I kept when I was 15 / 16 years old, in 1985. Index here.]
Wed 30th Jan 1985 (Clare is 15 years old)
Kirsty was being really bitchy at school today and cruel to me on purpose, with cutting comments, nasty observations etc. She’s the one person I’ve got no defences against and it really got me down, and then I had to do Door Duty, and all the 1st, 2nd and 3rd years obviously thought I was a moron, and I couldn’t stand the thought of another 2 years at that BLOODY SCHOOL and I broke down and cried in the Youth Centre.
Didn’t do any revision tonight. But thought a lot about seeing Matthew at Drama tomorrow and what I’d wear.
This evening I absolutely COMPLETELY remade an old jumper and now it’s really great! Also did up an awful old skirt and the two make a v. good matching pair.
Thurs 31st Jan 1985
Saw Philip this aft. He came and talked to me outside German room.
Drama was great! Wore my new converted jumper and it looked v. good, but Matthew and John said the shirt underneath was too revealing, and all the boys in the room were watching me. Well I didn’t notice! Got water squirted at me afterwards.
In play I was Chris’s wife and he took every opportunity he could to put his arms round me.
Went to chippy after and got LOTS of kisses from Matthew. MMMMM! He said he’d seen a V-card for £4!
Fri 1st Feb 1985
1985 has been around for 4 weeks (AROUND WHERE?)
I don’t know why, but one thing I really hate is ignorance. Innocence, too!
Should’ve done some revision, but didn’t. Nowt much happened today. EXCEPT I’ve made a FAB new hiding place for this diary, and as anyone who is reading this diary will have already found this place, I’ll tell all about it. I’ve taken an old Girl’s Fun Annual of my mum’s (passed on to me, and v crap.), and I’ve left the title pages and first story intact but THEN I’ve cut a big chunk of middles of pages out, and put the diary in the resulting hole. I’ve left the outsides of the pages so it just looks like an ordinary boring book, and I’m sure no-one would think of looking for my diary in my BOOKSHELVES, in with all my other books.
Sat 2nd Feb 1985
Look up populations. Buy V-cards. Buy buttons and hairspray. Meet Matthew and co. 2.00 outside Woolly’s.
Bought V-cards (Matthew: ‘A BIG LOVE from your sweet little valentine’ / Philip: a picture of a rainbow and ‘you bring colour to my life. Happy Valentine’s Day!’). In Philip’s I put love from a friend, and in Matthew’s I put lots of love and an obvious clue about who it was from.
Met Matthew in town; at first it was a dead loss, then Chris had to go, and we went with him and helped him do his paper-round.
Lot of kisses between me and Matthew, then Me, Matthew and John had to start walking back into town, with Matthew trying to molest me as we walked along. Matthew was staying the night at John’s, so I went to John’s and me and Matthew got v. involved.
John was either shooed from the room or he ignored us, but then he sort of joined in. Talk about menage a trois!
Matthew wanted to give me a love bite but I wouldn’t let him. I’ve found out that stroking Matthew’s thighs makes him feel really vulnerable! We told each other we loved each other and talked about marriage and it was altogether quite a revolutionary evening. Ooooh!
Sun 3rd Feb 1985
Didn’t sleep a wink last night for thinking about yesterday, and me and Matthew, and going on the pill, and losing my virginity. Matthew wanted to lose both our virginities next Saturday, cos he’s got a day off.
He wanted to go to the loos at the Bonding Warehouse, which is where you get toggies. I think I want to, but not until I know him better.
Went babysitting. Stopped off at Philip’s to say Goodbye cos he’s going skiing at 11.00 tonight from shcool. Got home at ¼ to 11 and wanted to go to school to see him off but didn’t dare.
Wed 30th Jan 1985 (Clare is 15 years old)
Kirsty was being really bitchy at school today and cruel to me on purpose, with cutting comments, nasty observations etc. She’s the one person I’ve got no defences against and it really got me down, and then I had to do Door Duty, and all the 1st, 2nd and 3rd years obviously thought I was a moron, and I couldn’t stand the thought of another 2 years at that BLOODY SCHOOL and I broke down and cried in the Youth Centre.
Didn’t do any revision tonight. But thought a lot about seeing Matthew at Drama tomorrow and what I’d wear.
This evening I absolutely COMPLETELY remade an old jumper and now it’s really great! Also did up an awful old skirt and the two make a v. good matching pair.
Thurs 31st Jan 1985
Saw Philip this aft. He came and talked to me outside German room.
Drama was great! Wore my new converted jumper and it looked v. good, but Matthew and John said the shirt underneath was too revealing, and all the boys in the room were watching me. Well I didn’t notice! Got water squirted at me afterwards.
In play I was Chris’s wife and he took every opportunity he could to put his arms round me.
Went to chippy after and got LOTS of kisses from Matthew. MMMMM! He said he’d seen a V-card for £4!
Fri 1st Feb 1985
1985 has been around for 4 weeks (AROUND WHERE?)
I don’t know why, but one thing I really hate is ignorance. Innocence, too!
Should’ve done some revision, but didn’t. Nowt much happened today. EXCEPT I’ve made a FAB new hiding place for this diary, and as anyone who is reading this diary will have already found this place, I’ll tell all about it. I’ve taken an old Girl’s Fun Annual of my mum’s (passed on to me, and v crap.), and I’ve left the title pages and first story intact but THEN I’ve cut a big chunk of middles of pages out, and put the diary in the resulting hole. I’ve left the outsides of the pages so it just looks like an ordinary boring book, and I’m sure no-one would think of looking for my diary in my BOOKSHELVES, in with all my other books.
Sat 2nd Feb 1985
Look up populations. Buy V-cards. Buy buttons and hairspray. Meet Matthew and co. 2.00 outside Woolly’s.
Bought V-cards (Matthew: ‘A BIG LOVE from your sweet little valentine’ / Philip: a picture of a rainbow and ‘you bring colour to my life. Happy Valentine’s Day!’). In Philip’s I put love from a friend, and in Matthew’s I put lots of love and an obvious clue about who it was from.
Met Matthew in town; at first it was a dead loss, then Chris had to go, and we went with him and helped him do his paper-round.
Lot of kisses between me and Matthew, then Me, Matthew and John had to start walking back into town, with Matthew trying to molest me as we walked along. Matthew was staying the night at John’s, so I went to John’s and me and Matthew got v. involved.
John was either shooed from the room or he ignored us, but then he sort of joined in. Talk about menage a trois!
Matthew wanted to give me a love bite but I wouldn’t let him. I’ve found out that stroking Matthew’s thighs makes him feel really vulnerable! We told each other we loved each other and talked about marriage and it was altogether quite a revolutionary evening. Ooooh!
Sun 3rd Feb 1985
Didn’t sleep a wink last night for thinking about yesterday, and me and Matthew, and going on the pill, and losing my virginity. Matthew wanted to lose both our virginities next Saturday, cos he’s got a day off.
He wanted to go to the loos at the Bonding Warehouse, which is where you get toggies. I think I want to, but not until I know him better.
Went babysitting. Stopped off at Philip’s to say Goodbye cos he’s going skiing at 11.00 tonight from shcool. Got home at ¼ to 11 and wanted to go to school to see him off but didn’t dare.
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